It’s taken me forever to write this pre-departure post and my lateness is unacceptable, but unfortunately I have a job now. Like an adult job, which is really not unfortunate I’m not being ungrateful but 9 to 5’s are no joke. I’m still getting used to it right now and my time management is just as horrible as it was when I was in college if I’m being honest. Enough about that though, what’s more relevant is how almost everyday I still think about my trip to Oaxaca. As an alumni now I can regret, and I sorely regret not travelling sooner. I got into my head that because I am broke, was a science major, and had other responsibilities I couldn’t go. I heard someone speak my freshman year who said that they travelled semester(s), several semesters abroad. I’m not saying if you want to do that you should, being an eof student I understand how hard it is to even pay for a semester in the United States, let alone a couple weeks abroad. It’s hard, can be doable, but this stuff is expensive. Still feeling it in my pockets, I can’t even look at Amazon the same. I’m very grateful for the help I did receive through the global study office and SEBS, without it I wouldn’t have the amazing experience I did in Mexico. I learned so much through small interactions with my homestay family, the people at Seguro popular, my classmates that were all a blessing to be with. The experience I had in Mexico has made me think a lot about what I want from my life and be more sure of the uncertainty I feel after graduating. During this transition period I have experienced a lot of emotions, including crying the whole plane ride to the US, but I feel like I can deal with them and be more comfortable with being uncomfortable. Which brings me back to studying abroad, there are real mechanical barriers such as money, but also fear. I love to travel and consider myself as someone with wanderlust, but it took my whole undergraduate career to decide on this class. I’m glad I did it when I did though, I would not change it, but live. Misquoting one of my favorite books, It’s Kind of a Funny Story, by Ned Vizzini, but live! Live, live, live!
Song: Un mundo raro – La Santa Cecilia